just break a silence

Belated Valentine's Day Pic

2009-02-17T04:45:18Z

Someday I will finish a holiday picture before the holiday itself. But I still want to color it.

The Assy economy

2009-02-11T17:10:45Z

The economy is ass. Check out this list of companies in danger of closing:

http://finance.yahoo.com/news/15-Companies-That-Might-Not-usnews-14279875.html

No more pizza at the mall! No more amazing fucking doughnuts! No more cheap jewelry or theme park rides with WB characters or movie rental late fees!

No seriously, I am sad about this. I mean, KRISPY KREME. FUCK.

Ulala + fanart

2009-02-02T18:34:26Z

I am slowly working on finishing this damn Ulala picture. I'm sorta discouraged with it because the work I did for Play did not make it into the Girls of Gaming print version because they "ran out of room" (but put two pics of the same character?). But it is supposedly in the digital version, which I totally am not going to buy because I'm cheap.

This has made me remember all the things I wanted to do fan art of!

- Eva Unit 01 doing something cool
- Link and Midna (imp form)
- BADASS UTENA ART
- BLAST/Trapnest band posters with Christina <3
- BADASS FFX ART
- Balthier and Fran
- Epic Skies of Arcadia fan art
- FF9 as well

There were so many more that I so don't remember.

Oh FFX, Let me count the ways...

2009-01-29T22:14:50Z

Goddamn Final Fantasy X was a good fucking game. Like for reals. I love everything about it. I love that it looks like a rainbow puked all over the buildings and people. I love the stupid battle music and the techno bullshit when you fight Seymour 2 out of 4 times.

Basically over the past few days my friend Ania was visiting, and when we visit each other we play her game of FFX, which basically means that I'm playing it and she's watching. I was only trying to get Anima and the Magus Sisters for her (which is way more involved than I remember it being) but it made me remember just how much I love that damn game, even if it's sorta outdated and a little corny now. I DON'T GIVE A FFFFFF-

Everyone bitches about Tidus. Shut the hell up. He may be whiney but at least he's not some boring piece of shit like Cloud and Squall. I actually really like him- I actually really like all the main characters from the game. And maybe I'm just nostalgic but I miss the turn based rpg battle system, even though I did really like the battle system in XII (that's about all there was to like).

So I don't really know why I'm writing this. I just love FFX and it has reawakened my desires to do fan art. I wonder if anyone has done a really cool pic of Anima. That is the most badass/sad summon evar.

25 Things About Me You Might Not Know

2009-01-29T21:57:45Z

Reposting this from the Book of Faces:

1. I've been with my boyfriend since our last day of sophomore year in high school, approximately 8 years ago. He asked me out by saying "Would you like to upgrade from gold to platinum?"

2. I secretly love that my cat only likes me. I guess that's really not so secretive. I just think she's cool.

3. One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone uses my computer without asking, or when they mess around with settings/install things on there. I'm looking in Jeff's direction...

4. In my free time I draw the same set of characters from a personal story. It motivates/pleases me and I find it very rewarding, but at the same time frustrating and upsetting.

5. I'm an only child so I desperately need my alone time sometimes- to a point. Since college I feel I've been alone too much. Then again, the reason I was alone so much in college was because I couldn't stand having a roommate. I have a low tolerance for people.

6. My mom and I are extremely close because my parents divorced when I was 3, so it has always been just me and her. I used to worry myself into near ulcers at grade school, afraid she would die in a car accident or something.

7. I have been told many times I have shitty taste in music. I usually only like one song by an artist so when I find bands I like more than two songs by I get excited. Muse is my favorite band because I like almost all their songs. The "shitty" part of my music tastes: Evanescence, Nightwish, Jpop, Aqua...

8. I hate telling people the type of music I like or that I like a few anime shows. I'm not overly obsessed with anime (grew out of that 9th grade) and I don't want to be associated with them usually. I'm afraid that people who see my art will automatically assume I am an otakuphant. But I don't want to change my art style because I find anime/realistic to be beautiful. Is that a contradiction?

9. I prefer the A over the T in T&A, and smaller T's compared to the larger ones. Butts and cute boobies are insanely fun to draw.

10. Part of the reason I don't like going to cons is because I'm tired of being asked the same questions over and over, and not really knowing what to tell people. I don't know when I started drawing, I've been drawing as long as I can remember. I did go to art school but it really didn't help much. Life drawing is the best thing you can do to improve. I don't know where your son/daughter should go, but if they only draw Naruto characters they probably don't have many options. No, I will not draw my character gagged for you, if you want to jerk off to something just buy one of my prints, at least then I don't have to do any extra work.

11. I am a spelling Nazi. I'm always horrified to find out I've been spelling a word wrong for a long time. Some of those crucial words people seem to forget how to write: Rediculous, definately, they're/their, alot, embarassed...

12. I have a serious lip gloss fetish. I love how shiny it is, I love when it comes in different colors, I love wearing it without make-up and with make-up, I have some in my purse, in my coat pocket, all over my make-up table, my office. I can never own enough, no matter what color it is, I will wear it.

13. For a few hours after I wake up I am extremely cranky and walk around looking surly, without speaking to anyone in anything more than a grunt or two. It doesn't matter when I wake up or how much sleep I've gotten.

14. I have moved over 18 times in my life.

15. I have high expectations of people and am thusly disappointed often.

16. My fear of failure keeps me from doing the art I really want to do.

17. I spent two years living with my mom in two small rooms above a friend's business after my mom lost a ton of money from being out of work so long because of her liver condition. Though the place was REALLY outdated (shag carpet, musty, etc) I look at it with fondness and awe at the fact that no matter what the conditions were, my mother always managed to make where we were into a home.

18. I obsessively dress my poupee (http://www.pupe.ameba.jp) everyday. It has actually made me dress cuter in my own everyday dress-up.

19. All my life my mom hounded me for not growing up (I have four large boxes worth of figurines, I still hate getting clothes for Christmas, I love animated films, own several cels, oftentimes can't take care of myself). I'm relieved I found a profession where I don't really have to grow up.

20. I still think poop and fart jokes are fucking hilarious.

21. I prefer watching the same movies over and over as opposed to watching new movies. I would prefer watching The Office Season 3 over and over as opposed to popping in a show I've never seen before. Same with games.

22. I have done 9 shots of tequila in a night before finally feeling the effects- no hangover, no puking!

23. It bugs the shit out of me when people capitalize every word of a title- you're not supposed to capitalize words like "and", "the", "of", etc! Unless they changed the rules since I've been in school. Shit that makes me feel so old... (And what's the deal with suddenly making it one space after the end of a sentence instead of two!? It's weird- AND PUNCTUATION GOES AFTER THE PARENTHESES). <-- Like this!

24. I use to online role play a lot. A LOT. Mostly it was clubs of shows I liked where you wrote posts in story form. The messed up part is that it really helped my writing flourish. Now that I don't do it anymore I write like shit. And I don't have time to read. And listening to audio books bores me.

25. Sometimes I wonder if I'm as ditzy as people really think I am, or if I play dumb because I'm too lazy to explain what I was really thinking or admit that I wasn't actually paying attention when someone was talking. I guess none are better than the other.

26. I am inept at arguing/speaking in person. I am exactly like Meg Ryan in You've Got Mail: "What happens to me when I'm provoked is that I get tongue-tied. My mind goes blank. Then I spend all night tossing and turning trying to think of what I should have said." Except add crying.

27. I played Barbies until I was 14.

28. I used to have a huge crush on Jeff Goldblum. But now he's watching me poop.

29. I'm a self-involved asshole that went over the 25 limit to tell you about how I love Barbies and Jeff Goldblum.

30. GRANNY DON'T

I tag Aja because she's the only person likely to do this who reads my journal :9

frozenlilacs @ 2009-01-28T08:55:00

2009-01-28T17:00:09Z

I just woke up feeling really annoyed. Mostly with people I suppose. Most days I just want to crawl back into bed and forget the world.

frozenlilacs @ 2009-01-24T20:15:00

2009-01-25T04:21:43Z

My poupee for the day! Ah, the snowboarding theme is so cute, I love me some snow *__*

Good Day LA

2009-01-24T14:22:49Z

I always say I'm going to post something then I don't. But I've been messing around with this layout for the past week or so, so maybe now I will care more about my LJ.

A lot has happened since I last posted. The boyfriend and I moved out to LA, which was interesting. I feel like I haven't been home that much (probably because I haven't) and it still doesn't quite feel like home, though tonight I finished unpacking my office (two months after moving in) so I feel more inclined to do work. I just can't work in a messy environment, it makes me feel like there is too much going on.

One of my best friends is visiting from Atlanta and I'm so happy she came out to see me! I think it will finally be a chance to go and do all those LA type things. We want to take her to the Griffith Park observatory, and I think one day this week we will try to go to Disneyland since Jeff won't go with me. And of course, since we live around Koreatown, we will be eating some fucking awesome Korean food and Korean bbq I hope.

It feels so weird to be living in LA. It still doesn't feel real. And I know it's a stupid thing to say before I say it, but I can't believe how much is going on out here. I mean- we've already had two celebrity sightings, there are constantly amazing things happening out here, movies and shows being shot- I used to get so excited when I recognized Chicago in movies when I lived there during school, but my God, everything is shot here. I mean shit like- Jeff's co-worker's house was in Six Feet Under, we saw Jan from the Office at LAX, and I saw Tim Curry in the hardware store. It's really hard to wrap my mind around the fact that all this is going on where I -live- now. I guess because where I'm from that stuff seems so out of reach.

Mostly so far my favorite things about LA are the freaking food but I guess that says something about me. :X

Also everyone states the weather as being a reason they move to California- are you serious? I can't stand the same weather for that long, and it is eternally sunny and warm here. I miss snow already. But at least it's a comfortable dry heat, and I've never been so allergy free in my life! <3

Halloween

2008-11-04T09:52:59Z

I never ever want to be preggo again.

Costume: Trailer Trash

Otherwise known as "Jefferson City Engagement Announcement"

Long Time No Use

2008-11-04T09:49:32Z

I always fall out of using Livejournal and mean to get back up on it but it seems people forget about you when you don't post so often. Go figure.

So much has been happening in life that I can hardly keep up. I'm working for Marvel pretty much constantly now and when I don't I have other fun side projects like covers or the like to keep me busy.

I'm currently in LA looking for apartments. Later this month the boyfriend and I are finally moving out and moving in together, halfway across the country. I'm currently living in my hometown in Missouri. It's new and exciting and we're just really ecstatic to have our own place.

Other than that not much- traveled a lot this year. From Seattle to New York, to LA (several times) to Atlanta to Alaska (holla), it was an adventurous year.

Oh, I just need to write on this more. I can't think of more specifics. And I'm hogging Stina's couch as I watch ANTM and work on my pages.

frozenlilacs @ 2008-02-19T15:14:00

2008-02-19T21:19:51Z

It seems I'm finally getting some work from Marvel! I've got so much to do by mid March T____T

The next con on my list is WWLA -- my employer got me on the guest list:
http://www.wizardworld.com/laguests.html Wayyy at the bottom, under the creators (in alphabetical order!).

Today a friend and I went to Burger King to GET US A WHOPPER. We neither one had had one, and the new ads for Burger King (GET ME A WHOPPER) crack us the fuck up!

Additionally, my cousins waited til the last minute to get stuff together for their wedding so before it happens on March 1, along with being a candlelighter, I have to make the programs and scan their pictures for a slideshow. ARGH.

Yay Vday

2008-02-15T04:51:40Z

Ohhhh Valentine's Day. How silly you are.

I can't think of a better way to spend Vday than sitting with my mom, watching LOST and eating good food. <3 And I don't care if I'm 23, I still love the giant ass stuffed bear I got. I'm naming him Charlie after the hobbit on Lost.

You ruined a funny joke, get out of my offive.

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Boobs.

Cancer

2008-02-07T03:53:59Z

It's a scary word. Whenever you hear it, you automatically think "OH FUCK."

We just found out that my boyfriend's Granny has cancer. It has already metastisized, probably through her lymphatic system seeing as there was cancerous tissue inside them, and is on her liver and her lung. Jeff made a comment that she might not even make it to his graduation.

This is the sweetest woman I have ever met. She is the kind of grandmother I had always wanted for myself: sweet, short and plump, makes wonderful food and tells lighthearted stories. I was looking forward to being apart of her family, and she seemed to take to me too. She was excited at the prospect of Jeff and I getting married. Now I don't even know if she'll be able to see it.

I remember wondering how Jeff could be so upset when my grandfather died. She is not even my relation and I've been more upset about it than he has. I think he is trying to remain positive, not letting himself think about it too much until they know all the facts.

Jeff and I decided that no matter what, we want his Granny to see us get married. I have no idea how soon that will be.

Cons = Broke

2008-02-07T03:46:14Z

Conventions are a lot of work. Maybe more than they're worth- but we'll see after this con season.

Any money I managed to save up has been completely wiped out by plane tickets, con fees, prints and merchandising...not to mention a couple of big hits I took by canceling a trip to Alaska. I have about $50 to get me by until one of my checks get here, or hopefully I will make some moolah at Naka-kon (which begins this Friday).

Naka-kon is a small con in the Kansas City area that my friend and I attended last year. I only made like $400 last year, but this year I have a wider print selection, sketchbooks, and a big obnoxious pink banner. I'm hoping that, plus higher commission prices, will do the trick.

Wish me luck!

LULZ

2008-02-02T05:33:15Z

Looking up people from my college is hilarious. Bad Myspace photos and awesome Photoshop skills run rampant! But at least I got this neato Cox icon.

Wizard World

2007-08-23T01:04:04Z

Some good things happened to me at Wizard World. I'm too scared to say anything definite yet, I don't want to jinx it-- but it sounds like I might have some jobs. After going there, I definitely want to work in the comic industry. For me it's just gonna be hard choosing what to do exactly!

I also met a lot of talented people in the biz, like Christina Strain, Mike Choi, and Chris Copeland to name a few. Made good money at the con itself and got to hang out with my two best friends.

Being back home is nice. I don't have many friends here anymore, and I don't really have time. But having my mom and kitties is enough, that's all I need.

I'm hoping to clear up my commission slots soon, I need to send off sketch commissions today (I always go home from cons with like five extra sketch commissions, shame on me). Sketch commissions are really fun and easy for me though. It's the bigger ones that really need some head way.

And I totally just bought a sketch autograph Chiho Saito did for $67. HOW COOL IS THAT >:3

Stocking and dA webcam

2006-12-11T07:40:40Z

Xmas Stocking

leave a gift for frozenlilacs

get your stocking

deviantART webcam

shooting across the street

2006-12-09T15:38:38Z

http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/12/08/chicago.shooting.ap/index.html

This literally happened at the building across the street from my apartment complex. The building where the shooting took place also houses the Ogilvie Metra Station, which are multiple rail lines that lead from downtown Chicago to the suburbs. A friend and I were riding the bus down Madison Street to get off at the same stop (me to go into my apartment, him to go into Ogilvie) when people on the bus were saying there was a shooting. Sure enough our bus stopped at a police blockade and we were forced to get out and attempt to walk around it. No such luck, there were emergency vehicles, helicopters and the building was blocked off for several blocks. It was the craziest thing, not to mention that it happened during rush hour so there were hundreds of confused people filling the streets.

The way commuters made it sound was that it happened in the actual train station, but apparently it happened on the 38th floor. Pretty fucked up.

Love

2006-12-06T12:03:52Z

You know your mom loves you when she waits two hours in line at Target to get you a Wii. I'm an only child, so sue me.

Back to CGing...I mean, working on finals. >________>

jesus christ

2006-12-05T07:20:20Z

i'm skuurrrd

stuff

2006-12-03T09:08:50Z

I just went to a 24-hour comic day, which for me only lasted 12 hours.

I managed to pencil ink a comission, work out some other sketches, and draw a completely new picture, transfer it to marker paper, ink said picture, and when I start trying to color it FIND OUT I DID IT ON THE WRONG DAMN SIDE OF THE PAPER. Life's a bitch! I'll just CG it, or maybe Kinko's will print it off on marker paper for me. I was really looking forward to markering something!

Additionally I left my AIM on all day so I was really sad when I got back at 3 am and everybody who had IMed me was already asleep.

BTW. I LOVE XMAS.

These Are a Few of My Favorite Things!

2006-11-23T20:30:13Z

List 10 of your favorite things beginning with your assigned letter.

pana gave me the letter G!

gingerbread
Gorillaz
Garnet (the gem and the character)
Gymarrianites
Gustav Klimt
geisha
Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex
gloss (lip)
Garfield
Goldeneye (movie and game)

If you comment on this journal and ask for a letter, I'll randomly select a letter for you and then you go and post on your journal 10 of your favorite things beginning with the assigned letter!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYBODY!! Hope you all get good and fat on turkey, while spending time with family and friends.

Please Don't Take it Seriously

2006-11-10T07:07:35Z

My halloween costume, a "Hot Topic Customer."

The lyrics are from Evanescence's "Going Under." It needs more lens flare.

I Can't Believe I Stayed Up All Night Doing This

2006-11-07T13:59:55Z

I have no fucking clue how to edit this LiveJournal thing to look all pretty, so I did the best I could with what limited resources I had. Meh. At least it has Hachi and Muse quotage. Five points for anyone who knows what song it's from. Also if anyone knows how to change the mood sets please let me know!

I will be using this LJ more often now to keep in touch with friends, upload journals and post scraps and works in progress.