If you actually read through this, you will see how gay I am for Final Fantasy X.

[Me]: like in FFX, death was not like it is in real life
[Me]: well, for gods at least
[Jeff]: well, it was, except that they were in a dream/memory, right?
[Me]: god DAMN i love FFX so fucking much
[Me]: no
[Me]: you could be dead but still live on sorta, like Auron
[Jeff]: on yeah, the future was a dream
[Me]: if you had unfinished business
[Me]: until a summoner sent your soul away
[Me]: otherwise you could become a monster
[Me]: tidus was different entirely
[Me]: the whole twist to the story is that the whole time the main character thinks they've traveled to this post-apocalyptic future in 1000 years
[Me]: but the reality is that he was never apart of the reality of it, he's actually FROM their same time
[Jeff]: but he's a dream or something, right?
[Me]: but the dreaming fayth had recreated zanarkand within their minds, based on what they could remember
[Me]: yeah
[Jeff]: see, i was right
[Me]: but somehow Sin invaded that too
[Me]: yeah, but the point is that its not the norm of the story
[Me]: it was a special instance
[Me]: Sin invaded the dream to get Tidus
[Jeff]: because he's his dad?

[Me]: its amazing how they created this really detailed alternate society
[Me]: and a world with a whole new set of physics that make sense, instead of being random fantasy shit
[Me]: and it seemed to parallel what is going on at the time with religion and society
[Me]: don't be a cunny
[Me]: its a good ass game
[Jeff]: what do you mean a new set of physics?
[Me]: like a new system with death and life
[Jeff]: oh
[Me]: and they explained magic more
[Me]: than just magic
[Jeff]: that's not really physics though
[Jeff]: its metaphysics
[Me]: by phsyics i mean the mechanics that make the world work
[Jeff]: thats like, gravity, particle forces, etc
[Jeff]: you mean metaphysics
[Me]: yeah, i didn't mean it in that sense
[Jeff]: yes
[Me]: why the world is the way it is
[Jeff]: yeah
[Me]: but it was like..
[Me]: i dont know!
[Me]: so much more in depth than any other game i've played
[Jeff]: metaphysics is about the ultimate nature of being and the universe
[Me]: no, it alsos howed how their world worked
[Me]: so physics too
[Jeff]: physics describes how, metaphysics asks why
[Me]: i was right physics
[Me]: physics is what i meant to say
[Jeff]: ... no, that's not physics
[Me]: how the world works
[Me]: not why
[Jeff]: physics studies matter, motion, space, and time
[Me]: but jeff, its a fantasy
[Jeff]: afterlife isnt physics
[Me]: those things are irrelevent
[Jeff]: its metaphysics
[Me]: its not afterlife
[Jeff]: the soul is a metaphysical thing
[Me]: i'm talking about summoning and magic
[Me]: that is physics for that world
[Me]: like in that story you could actually believe they existed, instead of just being like.."WELL THEY USE MAGIC"
[Jeff]: no, its spirtual
[Me]: in that story it isn't
[Me]: summoning was a big part of life
[Me]: and it was the thing that created sin
[Jeff]: i know, but its a spiritual thing
[Me]: no, thats not a spiritual thing
[Me]: i mean it can be
[Me]: but its also a big part of how that world works
[Jeff]: how does it work?
[Me]: summoning or sin?
[Jeff]: summoning?
[Me]: the spiritual aspect is that they summon entities of fayth, which aren't really dead but they aren't living either
[Me]: but summoning can create all these like, side effects
[Jeff]: they're imagined by the fayth, right?
[Jeff]: then are brought into reality?
[Me]: sin is a creature that is basically an entity that keeps summoning, infinitely
[Me]: which is why when a summoner "kills" it, it takes 10 years for it to come back after it has merged with the old summoner's last aeon
[Me]: and continues the summoning cycle
[Jeff]: so it gets stronger each time?
[Me]: no, i think that the aeons are souls of the fayth
[Me]: but they could be a dream of it...because i mean, Anima was seymour's mom
[Me]: so i think it was a creature based off her soul
[Jeff]: hmm
[Me]: i'm not for certain if Sin gets stronger each time
[Me]: but summoning was not the way to kill Sin
[Me]: because it feeds off of it

[Me]: but do you see how it is physics too?
[Me]: like, in that universe?
[Jeff]: in the sense that it is phsyical reality in their world, yeah
[Jeff]: yeah
[Jeff]: but the ideas are all metaphysical
[Jeff]: i mean, dreams, souls, alternate realities
[Me]: but in that story the metaphysical and the physical are tied really closely
[Me]: the metaphysical affects the physical

CONCLUSION: OMG STFU YOU FUCKING NERDS

It seems I'm finally getting some work from Marvel! I've got so much to do by mid March T____T

The next con on my list is WWLA -- my employer got me on the guest list:
http://www.wizardworld.com/laguests.html Wayyy at the bottom, under the creators (in alphabetical order!).

Today a friend and I went to Burger King to GET US A WHOPPER. We neither one had had one, and the new ads for Burger King (GET ME A WHOPPER) crack us the fuck up!

Additionally, my cousins waited til the last minute to get stuff together for their wedding so before it happens on March 1, along with being a candlelighter, I have to make the programs and scan their pictures for a slideshow. ARGH.

Ohhhh Valentine's Day. How silly you are.

I can't think of a better way to spend Vday than sitting with my mom, watching LOST and eating good food. <3 And I don't care if I'm 23, I still love the giant ass stuffed bear I got. I'm naming him Charlie after the hobbit on Lost.

You ruined a funny joke, get out of my offive.

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Boobs.

It's a scary word. Whenever you hear it, you automatically think "OH FUCK."

We just found out that my boyfriend's Granny has cancer. It has already metastisized, probably through her lymphatic system seeing as there was cancerous tissue inside them, and is on her liver and her lung. Jeff made a comment that she might not even make it to his graduation.

This is the sweetest woman I have ever met. She is the kind of grandmother I had always wanted for myself: sweet, short and plump, makes wonderful food and tells lighthearted stories. I was looking forward to being apart of her family, and she seemed to take to me too. She was excited at the prospect of Jeff and I getting married. Now I don't even know if she'll be able to see it.

I remember wondering how Jeff could be so upset when my grandfather died. She is not even my relation and I've been more upset about it than he has. I think he is trying to remain positive, not letting himself think about it too much until they know all the facts.

Jeff and I decided that no matter what, we want his Granny to see us get married. I have no idea how soon that will be.

Conventions are a lot of work. Maybe more than they're worth- but we'll see after this con season.

Any money I managed to save up has been completely wiped out by plane tickets, con fees, prints and merchandising...not to mention a couple of big hits I took by canceling a trip to Alaska. I have about $50 to get me by until one of my checks get here, or hopefully I will make some moolah at Naka-kon (which begins this Friday).

Naka-kon is a small con in the Kansas City area that my friend and I attended last year. I only made like $400 last year, but this year I have a wider print selection, sketchbooks, and a big obnoxious pink banner. I'm hoping that, plus higher commission prices, will do the trick.

Wish me luck!

Looking up people from my college is hilarious. Bad Myspace photos and awesome Photoshop skills run rampant! But at least I got this neato Cox icon.

Some good things happened to me at Wizard World. I'm too scared to say anything definite yet, I don't want to jinx it-- but it sounds like I might have some jobs. After going there, I definitely want to work in the comic industry. For me it's just gonna be hard choosing what to do exactly!

I also met a lot of talented people in the biz, like Christina Strain, Mike Choi, and Chris Copeland to name a few. Made good money at the con itself and got to hang out with my two best friends.

Being back home is nice. I don't have many friends here anymore, and I don't really have time. But having my mom and kitties is enough, that's all I need.

I'm hoping to clear up my commission slots soon, I need to send off sketch commissions today (I always go home from cons with like five extra sketch commissions, shame on me). Sketch commissions are really fun and easy for me though. It's the bigger ones that really need some head way.

And I totally just bought a sketch autograph Chiho Saito did for $67. HOW COOL IS THAT >:3

( my xmas stocking )


deviantART webcam

http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/12/08/chicago.shooting.ap/index.html

This literally happened at the building across the street from my apartment complex. The building where the shooting took place also houses the Ogilvie Metra Station, which are multiple rail lines that lead from downtown Chicago to the suburbs. A friend and I were riding the bus down Madison Street to get off at the same stop (me to go into my apartment, him to go into Ogilvie) when people on the bus were saying there was a shooting. Sure enough our bus stopped at a police blockade and we were forced to get out and attempt to walk around it. No such luck, there were emergency vehicles, helicopters and the building was blocked off for several blocks. It was the craziest thing, not to mention that it happened during rush hour so there were hundreds of confused people filling the streets.

The way commuters made it sound was that it happened in the actual train station, but apparently it happened on the 38th floor. Pretty fucked up.

You know your mom loves you when she waits two hours in line at Target to get you a Wii. I'm an only child, so sue me.

Back to CGing...I mean, working on finals. >________>

i'm skuurrrd

I just went to a 24-hour comic day, which for me only lasted 12 hours.

I managed to pencil ink a comission, work out some other sketches, and draw a completely new picture, transfer it to marker paper, ink said picture, and when I start trying to color it FIND OUT I DID IT ON THE WRONG DAMN SIDE OF THE PAPER. Life's a bitch! I'll just CG it, or maybe Kinko's will print it off on marker paper for me. I was really looking forward to markering something!

Additionally I left my AIM on all day so I was really sad when I got back at 3 am and everybody who had IMed me was already asleep.

BTW. I LOVE XMAS.

List 10 of your favorite things beginning with your assigned letter.

pana gave me the letter G!

gingerbread
Gorillaz
Garnet (the gem and the character)
Gymarrianites
Gustav Klimt
geisha
Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex
gloss (lip)
Garfield
Goldeneye (movie and game)

If you comment on this journal and ask for a letter, I'll randomly select a letter for you and then you go and post on your journal 10 of your favorite things beginning with the assigned letter!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYBODY!! Hope you all get good and fat on turkey, while spending time with family and friends.

My halloween costume, a "Hot Topic Customer."



The lyrics are from Evanescence's "Going Under." It needs more lens flare.

I have no fucking clue how to edit this LiveJournal thing to look all pretty, so I did the best I could with what limited resources I had. Meh. At least it has Hachi and Muse quotage. Five points for anyone who knows what song it's from. Also if anyone knows how to change the mood sets please let me know!

I will be using this LJ more often now to keep in touch with friends, upload journals and post scraps and works in progress.

After putting it off for a long time, I guess I'm finally joining LJ. *waves*